cprdavidreilly wrote:
i am in pain. i have a tooth ache that is seemingly a part of my whole upper body.no health insurance. i AM still sober.59 days as a matter-of-fact.i do remember NOW what pain feels like, and remember why i used to choose the worlds strongest pain killer every day.i need to make music somehow tonight or i wont be able to sleep anyway.tired of my "human" skin for today.do u humans get these "aches and pains" regularly? because i will pull these "teeth" things you value so much, right out of my head and be done with it.pain=human=de-evolutionary=this sucks. im calling the mothership RIGHT NOW.
i hate this world. something so stupid, something that could probably have been fixed, wasnt...not because of choise, but because he had no health insurance...how can this society allow people to get sick...to not give help to the people who need it? it could have been prevented..you all know what i mean here...dammit...dammit...i wish i had money...wish i could have done something to help anything...####. maybe im just still reeling. i need to blame something...how could this have happened?[/quote]
I remember when he posted that. That was a while back. I forgot about it and was thinking that the infection was something fairly recent. I know what you mean about how people should be able to get medical help even if they can't afford insurance. It makes me sick to know that David's death (possibly) could have been prevented. And to make it worse, his case isn't the first like that nor will it be the last.
what's really heartbreaking...is i offered to help with the bill. I told him to just go and get it checked out. He didn't really respond to my letter...he just said "thanks anyway".....actually i believe he said 'tanx".....cuz thats what he always said.
Soo for me...to learn of how he passed is really tragic.
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this was my letter to him....dated august 6th 2005
Hey David,
I hate saying things like "i'm soo proud of you" and stuff like that...cuz your not a kid.
But I just hope you can really kick this whole drug issue....you are to valuable to this world. I swear I don't know how i would feel if i knew that you weren't around...and there would be no more music by you......it would be horrible. I love all the god lives underwater music....alot of the songs have really helped me in my life....like "Happy....and Miss you more than anything....and Dress rehearsal fro reproduction"......GOD I love the music......and alll the stuff your coming out with now....Holy ####! Like Stay...and Spinning.....and just a clear mind........I can't even begin to tell you how the songs make me feel....and since i chat with you...there's deeper meaning...........and i feel really sad....and i cry when i listen to then sometimes....cuz of what you have been through. Well if that's enough praise! You are soo awesome......I can't even begin to understand the things you went through....or go through daily.....but i feel for you....and that's not a bunch of ####....cuz i know how people can say things....and ultimately not mean them.......I want to help out as much as i can....if you need help with your tooth problem, i wouldn't mind sending you as much as i could. Not as a charity case...but to one friend to another. Just let me know, and if your the kind of person who doesn't like to take things like that....i can understand......i'm the same way. But i seriously care.....ever since i became a GLU fan and i wondered if you guys had anything coming out......then i found the site that mentioned 7, and all that surrounded that. I felt bad....cuz to me your a superstar....no matter what paths you have traveled...i'm star struck chatting with you....but i put that aside cuz i know your human too.....and i wish you had sanity, and all your looking for in life. But your on the right track...stay away from that ####! I'm dead serious....STAY AWAY......we(me and all the others who care) want you here. Ok....i'll end this letter...you should make an appointment with a dentist...and see what the damage would be....and hopefully i can help you as much as I can.
i'll talk to you soon David,
-raven
That was really nice of you! I'm sure he knew how much his fans cared about him and that's one great example among many. It's such a shame that he didn't take you up on your offer, but what can you do?
i guess regardless of our wishes his free will took over... so i guess it wasnt anyone fault really... it was jsut meant to be...but i hope he knows how much we miss him. i went to work today and when everyone was closing down the restaurant and cleaning up i blared BLAREDBLAREDUP OFF THE FLOOR and i had people singing the guitar parts and people were tracking thru the cd to see what they liked (i forgot to tell people who the cd was by though...and granted...we listened to rage against the machine a few minutes prior then everyone was all hyped up and i threw glu in the cd player..none of them ever heard of glu before...they were all curious...it was great..)...i did it for david...i was in the back washing dishes and singing and mopping... i forgot about what i was doing because i was so into the music... david always makes me happy... and im glad im spreading the love..
I've been listening to Life In the So Called Space Age cranked at my work lately, and telling people about the tragic #### that's happened. Granted, most of the people at my work are lame and don't give a #### about music in general, but some people dig it.
